Monday, April 23, 2018

Who Am I

I am an Endless Ocean 
filled with unknown waters,
sea creatures and distinctive sand that flows 
through miles of untraveled territories. 
There is gentleness in the depths of the ocean, 
sharp edges that are a constant reminder of the path 
I've crossed along my journey to salvation. 
At sunrise my spirit is awaken by the power 
of the currents and at sunset there comes a sudden 
innocence of low tides that trembles 
over the light of night. 

I am the girl who just like you goes through trials and tribulations. I am the girl that once lost hope in those around her and even lost hope in herself. I am the girl who constantly ran away from what seem "hard" and always looked out to be in her "comfort" zone. I am the girl that still doubts herself at times but acknowledges the fact there is someone in Heaven that is much more greater than her and her so called "fears". I am the girl that everyone try's to figure out but there is so much more than what's in the outside world. 


If you are going through a troubled situation at this very moment and you feel like you don't know who are or where you belong, I declare that as you read this you are given the identity of son/daughter of God. A God who heals in the now, A God who restores in the now, a God that loves you in the now, A God that believes in you regardless of your daily mistakes. Today, grab a hold of His unconditional and reckless love, AMEN! 

Check out the two bible verses below :D 
- Galatians 3:26 
- 2 Corinthians 6:18

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Remove The Mask

    She looks in the mirror and analyzes every inch of her exterior and somehow she believes she can dig within layers of her skin to see exactly whats in her interior. If she doesn't know herself than who else could truly know her. 
   She continues to look at herself as she covers up with layers of clothing to hide the fat that comes out of her belly. She sits in front of her vanity and begins to apply layers of make-up to hide the bags under her eyes due to the tears she poured out last night. As she finishes up, she takes one last glance at herself and says, "Nothing could be better than a smile". 

If the mirror could truly reflect what I feel inside, only than would I have existence in this world.

If you read this & someday you felt this way or you are feeling this way right now, just know it is okay. Sometimes as women we compare ourselves too much to someone else or we go based on what we see in social media. Today, Exhale fear, discomfort and the lies of the enemy. Inhale God's Promises and truth because it's okay to not be okay all the time. Don't hide behind a mask because only when you bring it out into the light you will overcome this mountain because that's all it is, a mountain. & I KNOW YOU KNOW HOW TO CLIMB OVER IT! so breathe out and tell yourself "I AM BEAUTIFUL!" & stomp on the devil!

I encourage you to read the following bible verses:

Ephesians 5:13
Genesis 1:27
Psalm 139:14
Psalm 46:5
Psalm 9:1

Thank you for reading my blog! Until next time! <3

Friday, January 19, 2018

Sleeping With The Enemy

Beep Beep Beeeepppp Beeeeeeeeppppp....
Here it goes again... 
The alarm rings uncontrollably as another Monday morning approaches.

 "The sun is finally out, 
 the wind is blowing through the palm trees, 
And the birds are singing through the blue skies...."


I already said that in my previous blog!
I was just making sure you were paying attention to what I write. 

Let's Continue...

Yet again there he is, sleeping as cute as a baby and here I am looking like Leonard DiCaprio in the movie Inception, wondering

I close my eyes in hope of opening them and realizing it has all just been a REALLY bad dream.
However, Here I am stuck in what is so called REALITY.
His face is so angelic, I catch myself mesmerizing in awe of his eloquent expressions as my body begins to tremble internally. There it is the outermost sensation of disillusion that permeates my thoughts and storms right through what's left of my fragile heart. I ask myself again, WHAT THE HACK AM I DOING HERE...

Regrets and mistakes 
I can't turn around and change. All I have left are these miserable feelings that paralyzes me.

I sit up, take a deep breath and say to myself,
"It's going to be all right". 

 Silent tears run through my face as he gets up with joy and walks away. I then realize...
I am awake & I've been sleeping with the enemy... 

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Rose Petal

Hold her gently and with precaution, 

For she is as delicate as a Rose Petal.

Sweet and Softly caress the innermost layer of her being.

Unfold the beauty hidden beneath the giant 

Because she is worth more than rubies.

Proverbs 3:15 
She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her. 

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Deepest Thoughts

I believe there is a shift in life when you lose your innocence
& someway, somehow 
The pretty turns into ugly and the nice turns into bad. 
The person you were at birth no longer lives within you.

She walks away because you didn't leave her any room to be herself anymore. 
How can she express her deepest thoughts if all you cared about was others opinions and approvals.
All she wanted was to be herself and express her deepest thoughts.
Escape the four walls that imprisoned her courageous mind. 
Explore the wonders and fantasies of this world.
She longs for the day that you choose to turn back around and realize you never wanted her gone.
Although she's buried to many, she'll always come back to reveal her deepest thoughts...

Monday, November 6, 2017

Inception or Deception

You think it just happens in movies until it happens to you...

I can't even imagine the adrenaline that runs through his body as the speed of night catches up to his tailgate. Exasperatingly, Dodging the bullets of darkness that arises with impetuous tragedy. "..Useless effort..", runs through his mind as his insanity is exposed at the peak of sunrise. Crawling through his hallucinations just to be dragged by his undeniable reality. 

This is it, this is real. 

Inception or Deception...

At the end, we all have a choice, even you do...

Friday, October 27, 2017


so I thought...
Bury my fears or drown my emotions

Who am I kidding they can see right through me, the fears I hold so deep within me, the thoughts of insecurities that eat my soul alive. Regardless of how much I try to hide it, the mirrors within the lies reflect the truth beneath the veil. I'm surrounded by ravenous wolves that seek to devour the innocence in me & divert my faith; leaving me with faded scars & a tarnished heart.

Tell me how do I walk into Your presence,
Unclean, so full of sin.

Tell me how do I walk into Your presence,
In shame

I see the reflection of my enemy chasing me,
so I thought...
Because at the end...

It's been ME...
All along...

"Now where do I turn?.."

Sweet and softly a voice whispers in my ears...
"...Unclean, I take you in."

P.S. As I was writing this blog, God gave me three bible verses & a worship song:

Matthew 7:15
1 Timothy 7:15
Philippians 2:12 

Have It All // Brian Johnson