Thursday, March 23, 2017
It's so crazy how sometimes we think we can hide ourselves from God. Through every moment of laughter and smiles, we just ease the pain enough to manage it around those that surround us. Constantly speaking with our inner voice, trying to make sense of it all, but at the end you just end up in the same place. Feeling so much lower than you did in the morning. Every thought that you just patched up during the day begins to unfold and burst out like a bomb all at once. The silent tears and constant mind battles begin but yet again you wake up the next morning hoping that the pain will end someday. Some say, "Well I have NO faith in God" but reality is if you are still waking up in the morning, still hoping then you have faith that their might be a god somewhere in the sky. All I'm saying today is there isn't
a god, THERE IS A GOD. A God who loves you regardless of who you are or where you came from. A God that collects every silent tear that you shed at night. A God that even when you run away, He chases after you. A God that knows you better than you know yourself. A God that gives you your true identity and only wants the best for you. So let's stop hiding and allow God to do something different today. That your past situation doesn't have to be your current situation. That your beginning doesn't have to be your ending because There is life in Jesus Christ.
Thursday, February 23, 2017
Like every other day, I decided to clean the office today. However, today was just so much different than any other day. What I am about to tell you may sound crazy but all I can say is that the beauty in the way God communicates is just amazing.
Anyways, where was I?
I put on my gloves and started washing the mop cloth. I could literally feel the water running through the gloves as if it were touching my bare skin.
Side Note: I love anything that has to deal with water: The Beach, waterfalls, pools, etc. Water to me represents peace. It is so much greater than us but yet harmless.
For one second I closed my eyes and I felt through the water what I feel in God's presence, peace. As I opened my eyes I realized the water had no type of contact with my skin but yet it felt so real.
Now take a moment to ask yourself: Am I choosing to KNOW OF GOD or am I choosing TO KNOW GOD.
Sometimes we continue walking through the same path believing for something new to pop up but reality is if we don't give a chance to new and unknown routes then we will just end up back to where we started. Continuously, falling into the same cycle of life and being miserable.
THANK GOD for giving us FREE WILL. Free will to take off the gloves and feel the water. To not just have the feeling of peace but actually having the ability to experience peace.
So YES, I am GRATEFUL that we all have the power to choose our path in life. Today I took off the gloves of stagnation and chose to take one more step towards my destiny. As I did, now I encourage you. No longer do you have to continue to walk through the desert. Today I pray in Jesus name that all the chains are broken and like Moses, the sea is parted for you to walk through.
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
We go around life trying to please everyone around us to the point that we sometimes forget about our own existence. Trying to fix everyone else's problems, making everyone else happy and even bringing some type of meaning to everyone else's life except our own. We lose track of time (keep in mind... time doesn't wait for anyone) & next thing you know 2 years, 5 years or even 7 years pass and we are still struggling with the same situation but everyone else seems to have progress. All those people that we choose to take control of their life's move on and do better but we... we stay stuck in our same cycle.
You may ask yourself but why?
I'll tell you why... because sometimes we are so afraid to deal with our own messed up situations that we rather deal with others. We choose to forget about ourselves and hide behind that fact that we are "helping" someone else.
Well THANK GOD for giving us free will, right?
Giving us such a power to choose our path in life.
Sometimes I don't know if to be grateful or to be afraid...
To be continued...
Monday, January 2, 2017
You look in the mirror and what do you see?
She saw regret...
Even ugly at times...
The girl that always had a smile on her face....
Yes, that same girl was rejecting herself behind close doors.
Finding no escape from a body that only felt like prison to her.
Nothing could possibly be worse than this...
One day a prince charming came into her life and everything changed... Finally a meaning to her life had come and no longer did she feel alone. He made her feel like the most beautiful woman in this world. Even in her sadness, he managed to make her happy. Her life slowly began to revolve around him. She was then introduced to someone very important in his life and from that very moment, that person also became important to her. The relationship became even greater than the one she had with the prince charming. It was something she couldn't even explain nor understand. However, her eyes were still set on the prince charming. Until one day... The day that rejection no longer came from herself but it came from her so called prince charming. In a matter of weeks she went from the happiest girl to the most miserable girl in this world...
or so she thought...
All the sweet words had become bitter. Every clear thought became confusion and every slight sign of joy was destroyed.
There she was all alone again...
Wait... no, no she wasn't.
Remember that person she met?
He was there all along.
Through every tear, through every moment of pain & hopelessness.
If you haven't yet figured it out...
She is me...
I am that girl that set her eyes on a man to feel worthy rather than seek God but through that same relationship I was led to meet the greatest person I know today... Jesus Christ.
I went from feeling regret to becoming grateful for every situation.
I went from feeling like a failure to knowing I can achieve anything when God is at the center of my life.
I went from feeling ugly to accepting that I am perfectly and wonderfully made by Him.
I am still human so at times I still struggle but even as I write this I can't help but smile because God turned darkness into light when He walked into my life.
So if this is you as well, just know that regardless of what you think you see in the mirror, God sees you so much better than you'll ever know. He loves you so much and He is with you even when you feel alone. So remember, YOU ARE NEVER ALONE.
"Pray to the Lord, and he will hear you.
He will save you from all your troubles.
The Lord is close to those who have suffered disappointment.
He saves those who are discouraged.
Good people might have many problems,
but the Lord will take them all away.
He will protect them completely.
Not one of their bones will be broken."
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
A season of laugher and enjoyment for many but a season of sadness and loneliness for others…
Take a moment to think about what I just said…
Now be thankful for your life because I'm sure whoever you are or wherever you are, life can't be as bad as the homeless parent that worries daily about what tomorrow will bring for his/her children or the little girl that lost both her parents on christmas day. Take a glance at life and for once just thank God for the simple reason that you are breathing today.
Life isn't perfect, your life isn't perfect…
My life isn't perfect…
We all have heart breaks at some point but let me just tell you life isn't over because of that boy or that girl that walked out of your life. If anything, thank God that they aren't in it because if they left that means they never belonged there in the first place.
Maybe you aren't going through a heartbreak.. maybe you are that person thats going through family issues during this holiday season. Let me just start by saying, it gets better, trust me. I was in that same position last year for the holidays. Sadness comes to poison the inner you and slowly infects all of you. The thought of being alone comes and next thing you know, it becomes a part of you.
I know what it's like to feel the outer joy of the christmas lights and the christmas songs and simultaneously, feel darkness overpowering every good memory you ever had… Smiling to the world and frowning to yourself because you don't like what you see in the mirror.
I know… I know… Life isn't fair but don't allow your current circumstance to pity yourself. You are so much better than you think you are. Again, life isn't perfect but who are you take away life. If you are reading this, maybe you are that person that God is bringing to my mind as I type. I don't know you and you are totally correct, I don't know your life but today I want to tell you that running from your problems isn't the solution. Covering it up with alcohol, sex, or even the way you dress won't change how you are feeling inside.
Today I encourage you to surrender your life to Jesus Christ. He died on the cross for you and for me. He went through the pain so that you wouldn't so just let go and let God.
This Holiday season take the time to encourage those around you because you never know what someone is going through even when they have a smile on their face. & If you are the person going through the struggle just be grateful because there isn't anything God can't fix. Seems crazy but be thankful because that same exact situation that is hurting you right now is what will make you a even stronger person.
Hold on to hope because great things are coming your way.
Happy Holidays, Everyone!
Be Grateful! <3
Monday, December 12, 2016
In our daily lives we all go through struggles, whether it's family issues, school issues, work issues, or even issues accepting ourselves for who we truly are. Today I am here to tell you that you are not alone in this crazy roller coaster that we call our lives. It is a constant battle from the moment we wake up to the moment we go to sleep. We all have our ups and downs but the key is to keep fighting through it all regardless of how hard it gets.
I don't say this just to sound nice to you or to bring your spirt up even though I hope to. I say this because I've been in your place of struggle. A position of frustration, sadness, feeling hopeless at life, pride, hatred, anxiety, you name it.
Before I give you one of my many testimonies...
I would like to introduce myself.
My name is Janelle. I am a 22 year old girl that
decided to give her life to Jesus at the age of 18.
I can honestly say this has been one of the best decisions
of my life. I am a worshipper and a writer. I look forward
to impacting lives through my blogs because I know what is
like to walk the hard road to salvation while still having
a constant battle with your flesh and mind.
So... WELCOME and remember this is a FREE and SAFE zone.
NO NEGATIVITY ALLOWED :D
... About a year ago I went through one of the worst experiences of my life. My parents separated after 20 years of marriage. For years I lived in a household filled with violence and emotional torture. It was all finally coming to an end.. Well in others eyes, I'd say because inside I felt worse than ever. My faith in God was truly tested. All I remember asking God was "Why?" ... "Why me"... The hurt I felt inside was something that till this day I can't describe with words. All I know is that there was such a void in my heart that only God was able to fill. After trying to fight my own battles and constantly failing at accomplishing anything. I finally surrendered my family, my emotions, my entire life to God and it was in that very moment that He showed me His unconditional and everlasting love.
Yes, I am Janelle, "The Christian Girl" but I am still human. I lived a situation where I doubted God, I criticized His ability to fix my family's former situation and I became anxious to what tomorrow would bring. However, I am here to show you that christian or not, we all have our moments of struggles but remember that just like there is such thing as darkness, there is also such thing as light. In this case my light is Jesus Christ.
So.. If this is you just know, you are never alone and is never too late to seek the kingdom of God. He will always welcome you and come to your rescue without hesitation.
This is just a piece of a story of a girl that a year ago had hate in her heart for her biological father and now can testify that Jesus Christ has restored that father and daughter relationship. It is still not perfect but it's way better than it has ever been.
Today, I encourage you to keep pushing through it all because something GREAT is waiting for you at the other side of tribulation.
God bless you ALL! :D